Your Body Is A Wonderland
There was also my sophomore year of high school when my mom picked JP, Jaimee and I up from school everyday in our Mocha brown minivan. The three of us were in the sex ed/ drivers ed class and on the particular day I have in mind it was "contraceptive" day in sex ed. My mom was highly interested in what we were learning and questioned us as she drove us through the near empty streets of our little town. When we giggled about condoms and spermicide my mom took this opportunity to share her thoughts on the various types of contraceptives she and my dad had tried over the years. Condoms: she wasn't a fan, too "unnatural". Spermicidal: that was a no go because she could bear the thought of killing the little baby sperms. (I know... I know) So finally they went with the diaphragm. Lube that sucker up, stick it in, and you're good to go. THANKS MOM! That's JUST what my 15 year old friends and I wanted to hear about. We started lying about sex ed class shortly after that and saying we didn't have any questions or concerns with what we were being taught.
Besides my open mother, there were the COUNTLESS talks on chastity I was witness to throughout my Young Women's experience. The point of sexual purity was driven home again and again with talks, quotes, threats and tears. In my heart, I knew it was the right thing to do. In my heart I knew sex was (and is) something that is sacred and should be kept between a husband and wife. Does that mean it has been easy to maintain those convictions when I am in the arms of someone whose kisses light my whole body on fire? What about when I'm talking to them on the phone and they say my name while lighting a cigarette? (OH. MY. GOODNESS. THAT is HOT!) HECK NO it's not easy. And the reason is... I love sex. I think it's great, and would really like to get moving on having a lot more of it. But from the experiences I have had in my life, the things that have and have not happened to me, I know WITHOUT DOUBT that I DO NOT want to have a sexual relationship with someone outside the bonds of marriage. There are some things I am emotionally incapable of doing, and honestly, a sex without the commitment of marriage is one of them. And while the talks I had over the years with my parents, family members, friends and boyfriends contributed to this choice, it was a lesson I had to learn on my own. A lesson that, sadly, was partly learned the hard way. But it was the way I had to learn, they were experiences I needed to have to strengthen my convictions and cement my commitment to a commandment the very human part of me would rather not adhere to.
I don't hold everyone to the standards I have for myself. I don't expect that everyone will agree with my view on sexual activity. I think it is a very personal choice. I would never force my views and beliefs on anyone, but I know what works for me. I know that I am happiest when I am living the law of chastity, and that someday I will be blessed with a spouse and he will be very, very lucky ;)