Give them a calling?
I have read the Book of Mormon several times. I have never truely had a true testament of the Church. I think some of the values that are taught are fantastic, and can be a useful guide in one's life. As a teenager, I struggled with different things. Mostly, my inability to believe the Church was true. I told my Bishop at the time, and several weeks later I recieved my first calling. It's funny, I think this calling was suppose to help me grow spiritually.....it didn't. I tried really hard to gain my testimony, but it never came.
When I was a Senior in highschool, I had a job in women's retail clothing. I worked with a girl who always had these mysterious bruises. It turned out that her boyfriend beat her.....often. She finally moved home. I went with her to pick up the last of her things from her boyfriends house. A week later she was dead. Her boyfriend had killed her. This event in my life made me become very passionate against vile scum who hurt women, and those who in a position to help people like my friend and then don't.
Not to long after this event in my life, a LDS friend came to me in desperate need of help. Her father was sexually abusing her and her siblings. She couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to tell my parents. Mostly, because I was pretty sure my dad would beat the living crap out of that waste of human flesh. She wanted to go to the Bishop. I agreed with a promise not to tell. I sat with her while she poured her heart and soul out to the father of our ward. He wanted to talk with my friend alone, and I left the room. She came out saying the Bishop was going to handle it. I was relieved for my friend. I was seriously pissed, two Sundays later, when the man recieved a calling in the Church. The only place he should have gone was to prison. Apparently, the Bishop felt this was a better path for this family. My friend has never been the same, and the abuse continued till her mother had the courage to walk away with her children. My friend has never been the same.
In my early 20's, a friend of mine was beaten severely by her "good" LDS husband. I was stunned into outraged silence, because another Bishop told her that she should forgive her husband. She went back to him, and he beat her again. Her husband also recieved a calling. She just recieved bruises, and the miscarriage of a very much wanted child. She left him, and the Church.
It's funny, I was taught that a calling came from God, and that you had to be worthy. Technically, I was doing the right things, but I didn't believe in the Gospel. Nobody can honestly say those men, who did these horrible things were worthy. So, it seems to me the priesthood really messed up. These are the worst of my examples granted, but I have a hard time following leadership that is so terribly flawed. I believe in God with all my heart and soul. I do not believe in any man's Church. Just as man is flawed, so are their Church's.
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Posted By Ms. JC