I Was Blind, But Now I See
As I have shared in the past, I have had my share of trials, and made more than my share of bad choices. If there is one thing I know, it's that you can't feel the Spirit very well when you're doing stuff you shouldn't be doing. The other thing I learned, is that I have yet to do anything that pushes me into some place where I can't return to my Heavenly Father. I have had moments where I really believed I was too far gone, where I had done more than was at all forgiveable. Amazingly enough though, when I was ready, and talked with my Heavenly Father (and as appropriate, priesthood leaders) it was amazing how quickly the Spirit was again a presance in my life. It took work, it took prayer, it took determination to give up the things that were keeping me from the presance of my Heavenly Father. But I knew what was important to me. So... I did those things that were required of me to return. I have a testimony of the atonement because I have been dead and live again. I have lived in darkness, and can tell you, the light is much better. Heavenly Father is just waiting on us to apply the atonement, to turn away from behaviors that keep us from him, and live with the Spirit in our lives.