Please Forgive Me
I won't say that the process was easy, it was surely not. Even now, almost a decade later, I have moments where the pain flares and the anger returns because of things that happened ages ago. But, for the most part, I feel I have forgiven - not only those who trespassed, but I have forgiven myself and that is something that is often much harder than forgiving others. There have been countless times that I have freely forgiven someone else but harbored the most hateful feelings toward myself for something so completely minor I hardly merits being thought about, let alone feeling as terrible as I've been known to make myself feel about things. Over the years I have learned this is not Heavenly Fathers way, but very much a tool of the Satan.
Do I believe anyone is beyond forgiveness? No, not really. I have seen forgiveness work miracles in people. I have seen the letting go of a grudge lighten someone's life exponentially. There is no use in carrying that hurt around. In the words of every recovering addict I've ever met, it is just better to Let Go and Let God. It is better to forgive. If you don't, the pain and hurt will do nothing less than eat you alive.