I've heard so many times about people who found faith when faced with challenges or tragedy. After I lost my faith in God, I came to find that life was easier for me without religion in my life. I am free of many of the stresses (from striving for the impossibility of perfection to feeling guilty if I had a snack on the wrong Sunday) that detracted from my overall mental and physical health. I didn't stop believing in God so that I could relax, it just worked out that way.
But I wonder and worry that the opposite could be true. Would I, in the face of tragedy, find that I needed faith and try to regain it? Would I be able to cope with losing a loved one or losing physical abilities without faith to keep me afloat?
It's impossible to say. I would like to categorically say "no" because if I thought I could have faith again, then I should be trying to regain it now instead of living my life without it. However, I find that I can't say "no" because I've been proved wrong before. If you would have asked me when I was 20 if I would have ever left the church, I'd have called you "crazy" for asking. But I did.
So, would tragedy propel me back to faith? I don't think so, but I'm pretty sure it's what my mom prays for every single night.
Posted by Kaycee.